But not the honey spiced locusts. Or rather, crickets.Definitely not the crickets.
I actually bought the freeze dried crickets and planned to do this. And that's when I found other things to do instead of continuing on the AFOIAF journey.
Sorry, incredibly abundant and cheap source of high quality protein.
Not gonna happen.
But what's the lesson here? When the project became less about following my joy and more about doing it because I have to, I lost my motivation.
Don't get me wrong. Any of you who know me know that I rise to the occasion and do what needs to be done. That's my life. I am the mom of a wonderful boy with sensory processing challenges. I am the primary caregiver to my best friend in the world, Quinn's Uncle Sandy, who lives with us and suffers from multiple sclerosis. I am one of two Operations Directors at my organization, having worked my way up the corporate ladder over the last ten years, helping to improve processes and re-position our organization as stronger, leaner, meaner, and faster.
AFOIAF was a fun project that helped distract me from all of the "have to" of that. That is, until I faced the prospect of the crickets. Then I realized... nope. This isn't fun anymore. I'm not eating them, I'm not making them, I'm done. I've made all the breads and soups and rabbits, and hey, one day I would still like to make the rattlesnake... if I can get my hands on the meat in a reasonable quantity. But other than that, I'm done. And you know something? That's perfectly ok. Because I am a strange pantheon of interests, activities, hobbies, and preferences.
In the time since my last post, I've been working on my painting, crocheting, improving my public speaking skills, starting my own web business, helping a new and amazing school to grow. When you think about it, I'm still my ever-changing, learning, exploring, kinesthetic and unapologetic self. It's like I never changed at all. *grin*
But enough about me. Time to design a few more hats for banner crew and resume this strange and wonderful journey,..
...wherever it leads.
